Wow.. it feels like fall outside!
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So I'm in the mood to update! But first, a joke!
Why do melons get married in churches????
Because they cant elope!
So anyway I made that joke up years and years ago and it's starting to gain wind so please, pass it on!
Also.. My stereo holds so many discs cuz it's a player. That one's new since a few days ago. Needs some work so help me punch it up a bit!
Hey did you notice I uploaded a piece of crap.. I mean art!? 
I hope you enjoi the fact that I am not ded. I know I am liking this whole living thing! So back to the whole art uploadedness. It's small cuz it was an accident. You see I've been busy with everything else but I do actually use photoshop often! I just don't share any of my crap ^____^ It just so happened I liked how it looked enough to share with you. Feel special.. now. Thats good *pat pat* -moving on.
I make skins for FF persona's (not on the site mind you) for a lot of friends and people who I don't know (or care to know). I also make some for myself. I am also in the process of making a new aqua desktop and I hope it comes out great!
So yeah things with me are dandy and I hope all my watchers are doing great *nudge*
I'll see what comes next in the way of DA approved work to share with ya'll!
P.S. I'm hungry... my tummy is making noise!
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You might be in the mood for some new art and in that case if you haven't already visited =Arbok-X then you should head over there pronto! Always one step ahead of most galleries the range of pieces he offers for everyone enjoyment vary from well planned and entertaining comics and antic dotes to character developments and some stuff thats best described as uniquely his own style.
His gallery features characters that are complimented by details and subtle backgrounds that make them jump off the page. I enjoy having the focal point being the character and the backgrounds having color pallets that enhance whats important about the character giving it that animated effect.
I see this somewhat disney-nintendo-anime-ish creature going places and not just as a meerkat.(get it?) Check out his commissions and the rest of his well organized gallery to get a glimpse of this rare breed that I'm sure would love new fans!
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My bro
Here are some icons of the NSider ones.. cuz they pwn all!!! 
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I'm alive but very very VERY quiet :D
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Happy birthday to me tomorrow.. and yes I'm still alive. I moved my computer and dont have the scanner hooked up.. so no irl art. As for digital EEEEK I actually crashed some of my PS files so I can't finish any old art until I find my backups.
I'll make an effort to get something done soon... to be less inactive ^_^
stay cool peeps
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You might be in the mood for some new art and in that case if you haven't already visited =Arbok-X then you should head over there pronto! Always one step ahead of most galleries the range of pieces he offers for everyone enjoyment vary from well planned and entertaining comics and antic dotes to character developments and some stuff thats best described as uniquely his own style.
His gallery features characters that are complimented by details and subtle backgrounds that make them jump off the page. I enjoy having the focal point being the character and the backgrounds having color pallets that enhance whats important about the character giving it that animated effect.
I see this somewhat disney-nintendo-anime-ish creature going places and not just as a meerkat.(get it?) Check out his commissions and the rest of his well organized gallery to get a glimpse of this rare breed that I'm sure would love new fans!
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Here are some icons of the NSider ones.. cuz they pwn all!!!
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You might be in the mood for some new art and in that case if you haven't already visited =Arbok-X then you should head over there pronto! Always one step ahead of most galleries the range of pieces he offers for everyone enjoyment vary from well planned and entertaining comics and antic dotes to character developments and some stuff thats best described as uniquely his own style.
His gallery features characters that are complimented by details and subtle backgrounds that make them jump off the page. I enjoy having the focal point being the character and the backgrounds having color pallets that enhance whats important about the character giving it that animated effect.
I see this somewhat disney-nintendo-anime-ish creature going places and not just as a meerkat.(get it?) Check out his commissions and the rest of his well organized gallery to get a glimpse of this rare breed that I'm sure would love new fans!
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My bro
Here are some icons of the NSider ones.. cuz they pwn all!!!
My friends are over there!!!!
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MySpace
I DONT LIKE THIS LOOK!!!!!!!!!1!!!!!
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I like change yes but this new "style" of DA makes me dizzy, confused, annoyed and all the rest. I hope you all enjoy the new look. I dont. I want an option to go back to the basics. I hate being stuck with what THEY think I like.
I got lost just trying to update, which leaves me even less willing to submit art here.
Besides that.. join Nfreak arena and it's new game Land of Camelot.
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NAO!!!!!
Peace...
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You might be in the mood for some new art and in that case if you haven't already visited =Arbok-X then you should head over there pronto! Always one step ahead of most galleries the range of pieces he offers for everyone enjoyment vary from well planned and entertaining comics and antic dotes to character developments and some stuff thats best described as uniquely his own style.
His gallery features characters that are complimented by details and subtle backgrounds that make them jump off the page. I enjoy having the focal point being the character and the backgrounds having color pallets that enhance whats important about the character giving it that animated effect.
I see this somewhat disney-nintendo-anime-ish creature going places and not just as a meerkat.(get it?) Check out his commissions and the rest of his well organized gallery to get a glimpse of this rare breed that I'm sure would love new fans!
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My bro
Here are some icons of the NSider ones.. cuz they pwn all!!!
My friends are over there!!!!
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depression... Im writing again :D
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*nonchalantly passes down Photoshoping*
I will leave most info out as to WHY I am the way I am but I feel like I'm not alone, so Im sharing some thoughts about whats going on.. so its personal time up in here.
I've been in a bit of a pickle this week. A razor weilding, pill popping, emo maniac pickle that is.
I want to die NAO... but I don't! Seriously why die early?? I want to be really old and shit my bed when I die. Nice picture eh?
There are so many reasons to be upset at life, like come on, its shit. War, famine, disease, and those arent even personal issues. There is not much to live for... oh but then *raises eyebrow which she cant do irl 
* They you get to thinking.. OMG what DO I have to live for??
Well there is, my hunny bunny sexay thang that gives me everything a girl could ask for... *wink nudge wink* And there is foods. I love me some pasta and some greek salad. Oh oh and I love thunderstorms which rarely happen so I gots to live to see more of those. See my life is great I havent even scratched the surface!
But when things go sour, Im about to rag or you know.. its just one of those days, I (we) cant help but feel like "grrrr" just busting something or someone. I dont care how good of a person you are, how much church you attend or how well you handle stress. There are still days when the best of us get down right depressed.
There is a basic reason for the snowball effect of depression. Its called " you asked for it"
When you attract negative thoughts you will be more negative and vice versa or heres a better way of putting it. If you wear dark emo shades and whine about everything that is not going the way you want it to or scream "wha wha life sucks wheres a knife" you will not break the cycle. You will continue being sad, wonder whats to live for and you will bring others down with you (normally not intentional of course)
If you want to be positive (yes it seems like forcing yourself to be "happy" when your not)you can put on Suzy sunshine² goggles and start singing "its a beautiful morning". It is hard and a bit overwhelming on the psyche but it will be worth it. You can shove your pride under the rug for 5 seconds just to breathe and say "everything will work out" Taking time to say "Im am human and its ok to change emotions!" will help you get over the "I dont wanna smile" phase. Even if it hurts.. you can smile with a lil' sass 
There is no question that life is terrible. People die. But why die(literally or metaphorically) early?
What if you could change life for the better? What if you being emo makes me emo and her emo and him emo?³
What if you took 5 minutes from making your life seem worse than it is and wrote or mental took note of everything good in your life right then! Did you eat anything that was better than sex? 
oops too mature.. mkay how about Did you meet a nice gurl or boi? Did your studies in school seem way too easy cuz you pwn all things academic? How about the families, do you have any bros or sisters that make your life look awesome?? Its all what you make of it. Be miserable and you will.. be miserable. Wow.. genius hey?
What I am getting at in this journal (if your still with me here lol) Is that writing or singing or dancing or just laying in a pool of tears with your teddy is a better solution than any harm you do mentally physically or emotionally to yourself. There are people places and things that you enjoy when you aren't in a "mood" so do them!
Be a detective and catch yourself in the act of depression or anxiety before it gets out of hand. We all know we say and do things we regret but its only after the fact that we notice them.
Be as happy as you can be and if your on the verge of emo-ness... spam DA. It loves it
Peace errbody. Im gonna write some more crap 
P.S. Any stories, rants or anything. Please share.
P.S.S. Suicide no matter attention, or for the purpose of ending ones life is REAL AND NOT A LAUGHING MATTER! It is very hard to deal with even if you have a lot of people you can trust to talk to. Sometimes it is better to talk to a stranger or someone who has been through similar decisions. From my personal experience I offer my hand to those who need it and my wishes that anyone with feelings of self infliction please talk to someone that makes them comfortable.
Please contact me here there or anywhere if you need to talk or cry.
*hugs*
² My mommy calls the sun (look at my princess peach deviation) Suzy
³ Research the phrase "mass histeria" in urban cultures. Basically we are all think alike and we feed off each others emotions and thoughts... cool stuff.
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You might be in the mood for some new art and in that case if you haven't already visited =Arbok-X then you should head over there pronto! Always one step ahead of most galleries the range of pieces he offers for everyone enjoyment vary from well planned and entertaining comics and antic dotes to character developments and some stuff thats best described as uniquely his own style.
His gallery features characters that are complimented by details and subtle backgrounds that make them jump off the page. I enjoy having the focal point being the character and the backgrounds having color pallets that enhance whats important about the character giving it that animated effect.
I see this somewhat disney-nintendo-anime-ish creature going places and not just as a meerkat.(get it?) Check out his commissions and the rest of his well organized gallery to get a glimpse of this rare breed that I'm sure would love new fans!
Previous
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*shfty eyes* wait 'til I get going on something else
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My bro
Here are some icons of the NSider ones.. cuz they pwn all!!!
My friends are over there!!!!
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XBLGamertag: Sassen
MySpace